Our little sweetie is 8 weeks old today...it seems like we are in the twilight zone...one day leading into the next...every day spent in the hospital...time floating by...watching our baby grow and get stronger...only able to move a few feet away from his isolette while holding him due to all the wires he is attached to...an interesting way to start a family to say the least...but wow...we are so in love with little Clark.
I came in today to Clark sans nasal cannula (don't have a picture yet)...he is now breathing without any help whatsoever. Our little warrior. He is still refluxing a lot, which causes him to desat...and occasionally brady. Today he seems pretty tired and uncomfortable...having more episodes. But imagine having help breathing for the first 8 weeks of your life...then...suddenly, you are on your own...oh and you only weigh 3.6 lbs and your have major reflux...not to mention trying to stay warm...yep, you'd be pretty tuckered out too. OH and he got his eyes tested today as well. It's a lot for one day. We are confident he will power through this transition.
Clark and I have been doing lots of bonding and it is beyond words...my heart aches for this little guy. He has such a little personality already and those hands-he is so expressive with those little hands! AND He knows things...he is teaching Jason and I so much already...for example-what is really important in life and worthy of attention and it is definitely not so many of the things that we thought...thank you Clark for waking us up to this moment.
Speaking of what is important...BATH TIME! We got to give Clark a bath the other day...and it was not the usual 'in the isolette sponge bath'...it was full on in a pink basin. We have seen some babies get bathed and they were not happy...crying and making a fuss. Clark totally dug it! He was completely in the water and not one little peep. He looked like a little frog..it was the cutest thing ever. He got his hair washed and I brushed it...which was just funny as there is not much to brush...but he liked it all the same!
Then, he got all wrapped up nice and cozy and feel into a deep, peaceful slumber...ah, the simple pleasures...
Last week was dark for me (I may blog about it later but not ready to relive it just yet)...this week...the dawn...after every darkness, comes the dawn...
MY GOD YOU'RE AMAZING!!! This whole thing is amazing, and he is growing, and you are growing, and we are all growing together. I ache to hold him someday. Love!!
ReplyDeleteHappy 2 months old birthday, little man. You look amazing and "fat". You are such a blessing in our lives, if you only knew.....but, I think you do in your own way. I agree with your momma about your hands, they already "talk" with so much expression. I look forward to the day that I get to hold you (I know the line is long to do this, but I am happy to stand in that line!) You are definitely the sunshine in our lives! Tons of heartbeams and tons more of love to the 3 of you for continued daily improvements! XOXOXOXO and, Christy, remember: hissy fits are allowed! ILY
ReplyDelete8 weeks old and look how far you've come, all three of you....oh and after the dawn comes the sunshine...don't forget the sunshine XOXOXO
ReplyDeleteHe looks GREAT! Glad all is well, Happy Birthday Clark!
ReplyDeleteHappy 8 week birthday, Clark. You are doing so well. Christy, there are so many ups and downs in everything baby. Clark is just giving you two a little bit more. It's OK, you are all stronger for it. Love is all around you and the heartbeams are bursting from every corner. Don't stress on the dark days, they do lead to bright days. You have so many bright, happy days to look forward to..look at how far he has come...3 lbs 6 oz and moving forward! Amazing... and I've told you how expressive his hands are and beautiful. Each and everyone following this story is here to help or just listen whenever you two need it.
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ReplyDeleteAfter this latest picture, I have to dedicate the followingsong to Clark
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Oh, I can just see him like the cutest little frog, taking a bath!! My eyes totally welled up from cuteness overload when I read that. He is so precious - just like his mom and dad!!!!!!!
ReplyDeletelove you mama- you are a magical lady and he is a special baby xoxo
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